Category: the art of discipleship


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For prayers at community dinner last week we reflected on the Seeds query What does it mean for us to be the body of Christ? and the words of Joy Cowleys psalm…

Seeing

Dear God,
I need to see myself
as you see me.
My own vision is fragmented.
I try to divide up my life
and reject those parts of me
I consider to be weak.
I waste time and energy
in the battle of self against self
and Lord, I always end up the loser.

Dear God,
help me to see myself
as you see me.
I forget that you made me just as I am
and that you delight in your creation.
You do not ask me to be strong;
you simply ask me to be yours.
You do not expect me to reject my weakness,
merely to surrender it to your healing touch.

Dear God,
when I can see myself
as you see me,
then I will understand
that this frail, tender, fearful, aching, singing
half-empty, shining, shadowed person
is a whole being made especially by you
for your love.

Joy Cowley

15.07.13

Padraig O Tuama is in town as resident poet for 3 months with the Uniting Church, I believe his greatest gift to me has been sharing his whole truth and the space that he creates that invites me to share my own – and the shared healing that is found through that.

These are snippets from tonight “poetry, prayer, promise & protest speaking to humanity’s hidden yearning for decency, goodness, survival and companionship” which may not make sense out of context but might be enough to inspire you to look further (books on Amazon) or ask me about it someday…

Trinity in me: hopeful theist, agnostic and someone in pain

In Irish no words for yes or no. Will answer “I will”, “I can”, “Tis”, “May be so”

God of watching * God of silence * God of darkness

Why do we have to dehumanise to delineate?

Once I was blind, now I’m blinder still

The people stood in darkness and in it became their light.

Appearance of the Blessed Virgin Mary (BVM)
“You never liked me much did you..”
“No. No, I didn’t”
“That’s ok”

Moments of consolation in the midst of desolation

God is the crack where the story starts and we are the crack where the story gets interesting.

“It is in the shelter of each other that people live”

Grab some paper & pens (a long roll and colours might inspire some creative enthusiasm)

draw a horizontal axis through the middle of your sheet – this is for time (your age, the year, whichever you prefer…)

draw a vertical axis on the left hand side of your sheet – this is for showing paid work (above the line) and unpaid work (below the line) and should provide an exercise to map how much you’ve had going on at once…

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(apologies mine isn’t pretty, some of them were….)

 

Reflection Questions:

1. At different stages, what have been the priorities that have directed/influenced your work choices and balance between paid work, unpaid work & rest?

2. When you look at your journey, where have you found fulfillment?
In which role or balance of roles?

3. Does the work you do influence the way you feel about yourself?

 

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For anyone who has been to stay with Ched & Elaine in Oak View, you may know of their little system for napkin individualisation which is that you write your name on a peg, attach your peg to your napkin and it’s yours for the duration of your stay (or at least until it gets dirty!).  Once they have written a name on each side, these pegs graduate to the clothes line and every time they hang out the laundry they see the names of all the different people who have come to stay – “a great cloud of witnesses” in the sacred ordinary things.

Last night I ran prayers before our open community meal and we all wrote names of people we’ve journeyed with that we want to remember and pray for.  I’ve never been great at ‘prayers of others’ but I’m pretty good at keeping up with the laundry; although I will acknowledge laundry can be one of those jobs that feels never ending. Brother Lawrence was a monk in the 17th century who believed in practising the presence of God “…we ought not to grow tired of doing little things for the love of God, who regards not the greatness of the work, but the love with which it is performed.” I’m going to do my laundry with love and mindful prayers for others.

Therefore I am going to allure her;
I will lead her into the wilderness
and speak tenderly to her.
There I will give her new growth,
and will make in her darkness a door of hope.
There she will respond with devotion
as in the day she first knew freedom.

Hosea 2:14-15 (sort of…)

Conform

As if the shop windows, billboards, advertising, etc. of dominant culture weren’t enough…

 

Pictured: Grandma Oak – a significant tree to Elaine and Ched. One of the oldest where they live in Oak View,
this grand dame has been split by lightening
and overgrown the “limiting” babrbed wire that got in her way
– a strong, beautiful triumph of nature
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While doing the internship in Oak View there were two other interns based offsite who travelled in for Tuesday/Wednesday and it was great to get to spend time coming to know Julia and Jeremy… I am an introvert and generally try to avoid meeting new people because it feels so awkward and uncomfortable and I’d rather skip that stage!  Early in the piece we were doing the dishes after lunch together and Jeremy begins “So…” and my inner introvert braced anticipating the question “What do you do?”, or similar, but no, instead he said “…tell me about a significant tree in your life”.  In the interests of full disclosure Jeremy is into anarchal primitivism and the interconnectedness of creation so that’s how he rolls but I felt dumbfounded but what a great question I conceived that to be.

So many of those preliminary introduction questions seem to be about establishing status/knowledge and we skipped it!

My mind went to the low-sweeping willow tree in Wellington Zoo whose branches touch the ground and an afternoon I spent having a picnic under there watching the world go by, or the wild gardens of Erskine College in Island Bay where my friend Jack and I rambled playing everything make-believe amongst the twisted roots and then my mind went to Footscray.  Footscray is where I live now, an inner-city suburb of Melbourne quite industrial and functional compared with the leafy avenues out east.  It was a bit of a shock to realise that I don’t currently have a significant tree – no place I go to get away from the house for space, perspective, to climb or lean against and read… I made it a bit of an objective being back to go on a tree-seeking mission.  …I didn’t find one.  But I did find a spot I like that feels tree-ish so perhaps I’ll plant one there.

So… tell me about a significant tree in your life…

We kicked off the Bartimaeus Institute tonight and by way of introduction to the space, one another and the content we did an exercise in replacing Mark’s prologue in our bioregion – it was great to hear some of the native stories of California, Minnesota, Texas, Saskatchewan…

(we acknowledge the people of the Kulin nations as first custodians of the land on which we work and play – and ask you forgive our ignorance and accept this as a light story in entering into the spirit of the exercise and representative of a desire to learn our own context more deeply…)

The Australian midrash went something like this…

Aunty Joy Wandin was up Broken Hill way sharing stories to remember the Dreamtime and people from all over, from as far away as Sydney and Melbourne, were coming to hear, and were baptised by her at the confluence of the Murray and Darling Rivers.  Aunty Joy wore simple clothes from a second hand shop with a possum-skin cloak overtop and ate good bush tucker like yams and witchety grubs.

She shared at the gathering, “The one who is more deadly than I is coming after me; I am not worthy to clean his dunny.  I have blessed you with water; but he will give you the blessing of the creator spirit – the Rainbow Serpent.

William Barak came from Waggawagga to be baptised in the Murray/Darling River. And just as he was coming up out of the water, he saw the heavens part and the spirit descended like a sulphur-crested cuckatoo on him. And a voice came from heaven, “You are my mob, and I think you’re deadly.”

And the Creator Spirit immediately drove him walkabout. He was in the outback for forty days and tempted by the Waa the Crow Trickster with the promise of shiny things from the mining of oil, coal and uranium;  Barak was with the wild dingos, platypus, wombats and other animals, and gentle bunyips waited on him.

Now, after Aunty Joy was locked up, Barak went up Penrith way, also sharing stories of the Creator Spirit from the Dreamtime, and saying, “Listen, the time for the healing between people and the land is here.”

And as he walked along the Nepean River, he saw Wilam huffing petrol and Hassad – a doctor in his own country but here just a taxi driver – and said “Come with me – I have something else for you to do.”

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The task of replaced thoelogy is to reclaim symbols of redemption which are indigenous to the bioregion in which the church dwells, to remember the stories of the people of the land, and to sing anew its old songs.
These can then be woven together with the symbols, stories and songs of biblical radicalism.
This will necessarily be a local, contextual and personal exercise
(Who Will Roll Away The Stone, 1994)

you can’t save a place you don’t love

you can’t love a place you don’t know

you can’t know a place you haven’t learned

 

As applies not only to our neighbourhood, country, world – but also to the bigger historical creation story we find ourselves in .